Keep one thing in mind that if you are taking birth as a human, you have a purpose of life. Without a goal, there is no point in living. You are the one to decide the use of your life. It can be serving people, earning money, and various other things.
Well, the main point is that there is no existence of a purposeless life. Also, you have to trust in God. He is the one who brought you this far.
We can understand that you had to face a lot of hurdles to reach this now. Also, we can know that the difficulties are forcing you to believe that there is no God.
But trust us when we say that God is watching us. You have to understand that God will never leave you. He is the one who will stay by your side for the rest of your life. No matter what happens, he will never leave you. However, you have to make sure that you must believe in God.
You have to make sure that you are not doing any sin. And, you must acknowledge that God is the one who is responsible for bringing you this far. He will never leave your side. Maybe, you will go through some struggles, but at the end of the day, you will be happy.